We started off our New Year by hosting a surprise birthday party/New Year's Eve party for Todd's mom. Her birthday is New Year's Eve, and this was definitely a milestone birthday - 60 years! What an awesome, strong, loving, and deserving lady. We had as many of our family, friends, and her classmates there as we could! We had enough food for an army, and Todd DJed the party! I really think she was surprised and we brought in the New Year right!
That Saturday, we had another DJing gig in Ransom, Kansas! We were busy driving, dancing, and enjoying our last days of Christmas break!
We got back into the swing of school, and already I have been attending ball games, hosting parent/teacher conferences, and celebrating my birthday! Celebrating a birthday during the school week isn't ideal, but let me tell you, my kids were awesome! I got sang to many times, and received tons of "Happy Birthday"s! The morning of my birthday, before I left the house, Todd told me good bye and warned me not to forget my purse. Well, I take my purse to school everyday, never forgetting it, so I was a little puzzled. Shrugging it off, I went to grab it and found a birthday card next to it. It was my first "Married Woman" birthday card, and it was the sweetest thing. My husband is NOT very romantic. I know it. He knows it. It is no secret. But this card said just the right message! It described our relationship perfectly and made me feel so loved.
Another new happening in this new year is that Todd and I are selling our house! We have decided that now is the perfect time to get a long-term home that will fit our future needs. This process has included jumping on the opportunity to own a new build, in a different town, putting our house on the market and preparing our home for that, and a lot of stress and anxiousness on my part. If you know me... or have even gotten that "vibe" from me, you will know that I am NOT the most patient person. I have trouble waiting, I have a difficulty understanding why certain things take time, or a lot of time, and when I have something new and exciting in my grasp, boy howdy, I want it! Our house has been on the market for maybe a week, and we have had three showings. I know that I am blessed that our home is being seen by potential buyers, but that definitely raises my anxiety level a bit.
I know that it is definitely a process that I am needing to put totally and completely in God's hands. He knows the desires of my hear. He knows my prayers, and will answer them completely (better than I imagined, and in His time.) He hears my very specific prayers, and loves and wants the best for me. But for some reason, it is hard for me to totally give up control. I pray about this so often, so If you could help me out too, that'd be awesome! Pray that I will let go, give up control, trust in my awesome, Heavenly Father, and that he will bring the plans of Todd and I's future into fruition. Even just prayers for peace in this situation would be wonderful! Thanks in advance, I know I have many prayer warriors out there! (What can I pray about for you?!)
One final detail, mostly about my life, even though I know it affects Todd - I wrote a few months ago about being unhappy or needing some kind of a change. I'll be honest, I was finding no joy in my job. I was waking up so cranky in the mornings, finding it hard to make the commute, and once I got to work, I was unmotivated. Maybe it was the "second-year teacher blues". However, since that time, I have been completely changed. (Some time, I will have to tell you how special music is to me and how it has had a place in my life since I was a very small child.) On my commutes, I felt the pull to start listening to the Christian Contemporary channels on the radio. At first, it was something that I had to do very deliberately because I knew I needed that in my life. However, now it has become a habit. My car radio station is always tuned into one of those stations, and my drives to and from school are a time for Jesus and I to be with one another. Sometimes I am so overtaken by the Holy Spirit that I am crying, singing, and praising my Father, all before I have even started my work day. And you would not believe how it has changed my life. I have joy in my heart. I love my job and my students. I love being wake and alive. I am turning to my Heavenly Father for everything. I am seeing his blessings, and speaking to him multiple times a day. It has even helped my relationship with Todd. We laugh, play, talk, and are just us... and it is good, so much better than those times when I was hating what I was doing with my profession and seeking something "better". Truth is, I have what is better. I have joy that only Jesus can give, and I have a new perspective on the things that I already had... the things that I thought I needed to fix or be away from! WOW the power of music, and WOW the Power of my GOD!!!
Thanks for making it through this post! I know that the longer I wait to write, the more you guys have to read! I'll try to be back sooner than the last time!